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ta da ~~~

       Finally bought this. I dream of owning a drumset since i was small, coz this cool thing is like my style —– "hit it HARD" !!!

       These days really busy with practicing music….suddenly feels that playing solo is not as hard as last few months already. Still, fingers need more strength -_- . And i tell you girls, guitarist have very versatile fingers, hahaha.  I like to say here, i feel damn FUUYOOOOOh , SYOK jamming in a band. It is a damn cool experience you can feel your blood boiling inside, grooving along with the music~~music r0x !

       FUUUUYOOOOOOh (btw im not digi user, but their ad r0x)

  As long as we are human, i think, sooner or later, 1 day we’ll be staying in hospital..why? o’coz is illness. And i *had* my chance yesterday. Nothing serious, just to make sure everything fine, took up doctor advice, actually i think he sees me as $$, stay a night for check up….

  I think there may be no other patient in hospital as relaxing as i was. Since i went there alone, i brought my laptop, dvd there (later found out i didn’t have dvd decoder to watch, then friend bought for me at night, …… so i played Puzzle Bubble 2 whole evening, and i brush up some skill there, wanna challange???). Yea, a bit bored. 1 painful experience meeting the ENT specialist. First time being stucked something from my nose to throat…yer….and it causes some pain. i got itchy just by thinking now……Other than that, nothing much. Nurse was…quite ok, got 1 always smile at me i think she thaught i was funny coz i don look like patient, more like tourist. People say night at ward can be scary, i din see anything weird?????? Cept that nurse came in very eraly in the morning, about 4.15 to check ur blood pressure, wat the hell, and then came in again about 5.30, ask you to take medcine, yeah wat the hell…THEN, at 7.15 something, an indian lady came in, she said she needs to clean the room……….yeah, how i wish i could sleep like some of my friend that cant be waken up jst by people walking around.

 **scene changed to Virginia Tech from Loh Guan Lai hospital**

  Despite the tragedies, i was shocked that the killer only use 9mm pistol, glock, not machine gun and manage to kill 32 people. I was thinking, the professor that saved the students by taking bullets wif his body, would he be saving more if he just jump t the gunner and trip him down, so others would rush up and stop him. There could be another solution, taking off clothes and throw to him to blind him. What im trying to say is, we should sometimes simulate this kind of critical situation in our mind, then think of some way how to handle when it comes. So when it really comes, we are ready to take appropriate action. This is what i called self awareness.

  Back to the story. What lesson can we take from Virginia Tech incident? In my opinion there are several people responsible to this if you would like it down–his parents, government for selling guns to public, headmaster, society, his friend that bullied him, himself…..Is not just him. People don turn mad suddenly. Everything has a reason. He get bullied all the time, no friend to talk to, all and all the emotions getting stronger and stronger in his mind (hey, not everyone get bullied like me and can still laugh, hahahaha). Spread the love, be nice to each other…Bush lets hug Osama and bring peace to our world. Stands in someone else’s shoes!

  **scene changed to my head from Virginia Tech**

  currently there is something big growing in my mind. Im sure 1 day i will bring it to real. Don’t worry, is not massacre, is just about my life that i’ve been thinking.

  Phew, that was long. ————————————

  Im not pshyco. I had the urge of going overseas and becoming a researcher since last year. The urge has becoming stronger each day, especially after i attended the 3days-2nights The Power Of Change class.

  I was thinking a lot since last year. If i die, will people remember if i ever exist? Why do i born here if im just keep doing the usual stuff like most of the people do.

  i) study
  ii) work
  iii)get paid / earn $$ / get rich
  iv) marry
  v) make babies
  vi) get old
  vii) die

  You know junk food? You can live without junk food whether they exist or not. If we keep on like the formula above, we are no more than a junk food. Ppl live and die like that, nobody ever knew you were here! Older people always ask us, study hard, be a useful man in future. What they really want to see is, we get rich and have a steady carrier. What if you really going to be a very useful man, you join fire-figther, you go mountain rescue team, you go travel the world saving the environment, you study animal few months just to record documentary for education purpose, you go deep into jungle educate the local uncivilized people, or you go join air-force to protect your country — Yeah your a useful man, but what your parents think, for most chinese parents. Why cant we just put it away all the traditional thinking, let go our burden, and pursue our dream

  There maybe be more than you get when you let go what you think is most valuable now. I know one day im going to fly, out of this small world.

  Have been sitting in home for few days already. And there are 3 days i didn’t even step out of my house…….amazing. My palm pop up some small mushroom, lol.

  Watched 2 movies at home. Yeah only 2. 1 is Blood diamond (fuuuuh oooh, Jennifer Connelly is damn pretty and sexy). 2 Pirate of the Caribbean Dead Man Chest. 1 is meaningful, thoughtful, 2 is entertaining, funny. Blood Diamond is damn good. The story, the acting, the hard work the director putting in, we all should watch it, especially diamond craze people :P. Won’t spoil the story for you, just go watch it if you havent.

  Hope there will be more of that kind of movie come out, yeah